A
lot has changed over the years. When I think about the person I used
to be and the things that I used to do, it is a miracle that I am
doing the things that I am doing now. When I got married, I had
reached a milestone in my life and I thought all that was left to do
was to have children. So that's what I did...I had 4 kids and I
thought that my life would be about raising them and then becoming a
grandmother, and then I would die and go be with Jesus. Now, that
doesn't seem so bad but that is just the status quo, I suppose. I
thought that once I became a Christian, I would live my life, try to
be good, do the right things and let life happen around me while
protecting my kids, praying for others, and paying bills. By the
time I reached 30, I had been a teacher for almost a decade, I had 3
kids and I was doing okay. I didn't have any career goals worth
mentioning, I didn't have any life goals other than losing weight,
and I didn't have any relationship goals other than being nice to
everyone! My whole world was turned upside down when I joined
Celebration Church and I found out that God wants more for my life
than what I was doing, that there are people out there without hope that
need to hear about who God is and what He can do. What I learned
about God's character and power and love just burned in my heart and
spurred me on to seek out my purpose. I've learned that the
Christian life can be anything but safe and boring!
I
had a very hard season right around the time that we moved to St.
Augustine. I hit rock bottom during that time and I remember
thinking, “Is this all there is to life?” I had become
discontent with the status quo and I begun to want more from life but
couldn't fathom how I could possibly do more when I had 4 kids to
raise, isn't that enough? I joined a small group where I read
Christine Caine's book, Can I have and do it all, please?
That is exactly what I wanted to know! This book had a section of
questions in it that helps women discover their purpose, and it was
these questions that set me in the direction that I have been going
in ever since! It's hard to believe how far I've come and where I am
headed. I loved being a preschool teacher and loving on the kids and
their families, but God has something more for me and I intend on
giving everything I've got to follow Him!
There
have been so many things going on to avert me from my mission and
goals! We are totally broke, so trying to start a business is not
easy but only the impossible can happen with God! I've had so many
health set backs since 2009, it would take another blog just to go
through them all! God has been right by my side, though, and my new
motto is, “Nothing is going to hold me down, I've got to keep on
moving!” As an example, just yesterday while I waited for my kids
at the bus stop, a piece of mulch went through my shoe and punctured
my foot! Talk about crazy, blood was dripping and my toes and shoe
were red and instead of sitting down and panicking, I pulled off the
shoe(which took the wood out of my foot), looked at the blood, put my
shoe back on and walked home! The reason why I walked is because I
didn't have my van yesterday since my husband's car battery had died.
Lately, I've been just pushing past the pain and through the
uncertainty and the results have always been better than if I had
just stayed still. I'm not taking no for an answer anymore. I'm not
going to just be content and be silent. My heart and my mission have
to do with people. There are a lot of people out there that have no
one thinking about them, praying for them, helping them through the
rough patches, caring for their safety and well-being. God has given
me a purpose and I intend on accomplishing that purpose with honor
and integrity.
Today,
I am standing at the precipice, the start of something that could be
just more than I'd ever imagined or hoped for, but that is the kind
of God that I serve. He does amazing things through those who have
nothing without Him. This may mean that I won't be a stay-at-home
mom anymore but this new venture may help me be there for my kids and
provide things for them that I can't right now. Nothing in this life
comes easy and that is something that I am learning, and nothing
comes easy that is worth having. I'm not doing this for just my
family, I'm doing this for families and children within my sphere of
influence. We'll see just how far God takes me, because I am willing
to go there with Him!
So
keep your eyes and ears open for what is to come. I pray that God
moves mountains and makes the impossible possible because I've got
big God-sized dreams that require faith the size of a mustard seed
and a God that is big enough and strong enough to make my dreams come
true!
Please
pray for me! I'm going to need it!
Libby
Mahoney
The
Cooking Activist and Warrior for Christ